Below are the 6 most recent journal entries recorded in kdlong87's LiveJournal:

Tuesday, January 11th, 2005
3:38 pm	haters think a routine? We think not! Some have said it has gotten to be a routine, but if thats the case then why are you back again? Routines dont last and then when they do end, they dont leave you wanting to come back for more bc u know what u had was REAL. Now that it was given up on, tried his lies and came back theres no question now what is truth. You know we are real, and thats t-r-u-t-h. All those lies that were said to question what you knew was real, ended up leading you to come right back so i can show you love again. I was every where you turned. Everything you felt, couldnt fill the space i left bc what used to be there was real, and that will never be filled with lies. When lies take over where truth was it will always feel like something is missing, and those lies will end with nothing to show, no matter how many times you try. Now it makes sense why that never worked, and why you longed for this all the time. It wasnt meant to be, it wasnt me! ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- So to answer my own question, you are back again bc u know now we are real, it is true, and what you were told was bull bc of jealousy. Im so happy that things worked out and im ready to give you what you want. I love you! As long as the stars come out at night... Current Mood: ready to show them all (Comment on this)
Friday, June 25th, 2004
3:31 pm	Can't Wait Till 4:30... Today has rocked so far and i know it will rock even more when i finally get to be with my baby. I have been thinking about her all day, and its down to about an hour until i get to leave and go see her! I woke up today and went off to work. Got almost there and got a phone call, i didnt have to be at work that early bc of the rain. So i turned back around and went home to take a nap, but when i got there i was thinking about Cami so much on the way home that i decided to call her!! So we talked for about 3 hours, maybe even more adn then i called my boss back again... word was that the people cancelled and i had the day off. i was sooooo excited i cant even begin to tell you all. I called my baby back right away to tell her the good news. So after that we talked for while more, maybe an hour and then she decided that she was going into D-town to get her check cashed. So after that i went and got my hair cut, jumped in the shower and here i am now! Still thinking about my baby, and still cant wait until she gets off! Its been really cool, even though i wish i coulda been with her enstead, but talking on day on the phone was really neat. Especially for that long. Well i need to go now, i am off to go collect some money, i will write more later! Sorry this took so long... ~Kev (Comment on this)
Wednesday, May 26th, 2004
1:11 am	cant sleep... yet again Well i havent up dated this in a really long time... i guess i should do that more often. Wait, i will be able to as soon as baseball is over! lol i cant wait. i will have so much more free time to do things that I actually want to do... not what coach wants. Well enough rablimg on, i just got off the phone with the most spectacular girl i know, (and no matter what she thinks, she is also the most beautiful girl i know also!!) I just got off the phone with her not too long ago, gosh i cant wait until tomorrow. She says there is a possibility that she might get off from babysitting earlier so i really hope we can hang out tomorrow after noon. The other night she read me a poem she wrote me and i was left speechless. i wanted so bad to tell her exactly how i felt inside, but couldnt get the words out... so after we hung out that night i just started writing and this is what came out... You asked me the other day how much i loved you. I couldnt find the words to say, couldnt tell you how much i do everytime that you tell me, all those feelings you have inside. i can never find words to say my words run off and hide. I think the reason might be, that i never know what to say is ive never been where you take me, i cant even begin to tell you cami kay. I might not have the words to say, or express how i feel inside. I really do hope together we stay, For a long, long time. To watch all our dreams come true, and come together in his master plan. I only want to be with you, you really make me the happiest man. No one has ever loved me, the way that i know you do. I hope forever it will be Just me, and you! I usually would just keep this kind of thing to myself and not put it on the itnernet for people tha ti dont even know are looking at it, to read... but i think its about time for me to let everyone know exactly how much you mean to me Cami! So there it is forever one, i love her more than anything and want everyone to know it too! That is just how real i feel this is. Well i hope everyone in the world reads this and knows exactly how much i really love you Cami, i wouldnt say it if i didnt mean all of it! Thats enough for tonight, its stinkin 2 am, im gettin up in 7 hours lol. night! Later on (Comment on this)
Saturday, April 10th, 2004
2:06 am	Cant sleep It is freakin 2:03 and i cant get a wink of sleep... i am tired but i just keep thinking! Man i cant wait until sunday gets here!! I have missed her soo much this week, and now that its getting close to sunday thats all i can think about! It will just be awesome when she gets back... She has caleld me everynight which has been awesome, and i knew she said she was going to call me, but i didnt have any idea it was going to be every night! It was always the best times when she called too, like she knew or felt something was wrong here with me... everytime i talked to her, no matter what had gone wrong during the day, it all became better and didnt seem to matter nemore after i heard her voice!! I love her so much, and i just want to hold my baby! Thats all for now, i just keep thinking of her voice and how much i miss her! I hope she is having a great night right now! Current Mood: tired Current Music: Smile Empty Soul--No where kids (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 6th, 2004
12:47 am	Is it Sunday yet?? Wow, i have had a crazy week!!! I have been moving and had baseball, and i have missed you like crazy! (you know who you are, hehe) I just wanted last week to go as slow as it could, and this week to fly by and get to sunday so i could be with you! But guess what... last week flew by and before i knew it we were saying goodnight on wednesday, not knowing that was going to be the last day i'd get to see you before you left, and then this week has gone by sooo slow i dont know how many more days i can take... I am so glad you got to call tonight, Monday the 5th, because i seriously thought that you werent going to be able to, and that i wasnt going to be able to hear your voice! Something that i was looking forward to getting to do ever since we said our goodbyes the night before on the phone! Ten minutes never seem long enough, i wish that we had all day to spend talking to each other. I jsut cant wait until Sunday for you to get here and i get to see my baby! Finally! I cant wait until that first time i lay eyes on you once you get home, that first time we get to hug and i hold you! I know, no matter how bad this week has been, no matter how lonely i have been and no matter how much i have missed you, that very first time i get to look at you when we get to hang out when you get back it will make it all better! It will all be worth it! Because i know that since i have missed you so much this last week, and have thought about you so much that, the first time i do get to hold you will just be one-hundred times better than it usually is ( Which is by the way, one of the greatest feelings in the worl! I love just holding you!! It feels all so right!!!) And so that is why i have made it this far through the week! But i am also glad it is only a week! lol... Can you believe that i forgot to tell you something tonight?! When you called i was going to tell you about how yesterday at coltons i was taking a shower, and i heard a knock on the door. Well it was Ceve and he was asking me soemthing but i couldnt understand him. So i got out and cracked the door, just enough for him to hear me... Well he obviously didnt think that it was opened enough to hear me or something, and he kinda hit the door, so it popped open and i am standing there butt naked!! And guess who is standing there staring straight into the door... Coltons little sister!! Colton had his head turned just in case i guess, but his little sister had the perfect (well perfectly wong) angle to see Everything... and by everything thats what i mean... when i cracked the door i was covered and hidden behind the door, but when it opened i was startled and removed my hand... so there i was for about a second and a half before i slammed the door shut. lol omg it was CrAzInEsS!! lol i cant believe i forgot to tell you that. im sure you will get a kick out of it when you read this, so i will just not tell you about it until you get home to read it lol... Like i told you earlier on the phone, i have missed you soooooooooo much!! Today was the worst day so far, every little thing reminded me of you! Last night when Gra and Kt were together, and Ceve had Ashley there, i would have given anything just to have you there with me for just two seconds!! then today everything reminded me of you, little cute things you do that you might not realize, and also seeing a guy on the phone or something, wondering if he is talking to his g/f and missing the times that we would sit on the phone for hours... just talking the whole time, never having a dry conversation... or seeing a couple walk down the street together, wishing i had you there with me!! I dont think you understand, haha I miss you Cami! I am so glad you are having fun down in Florida though! That is awesome!!! But i cant wait until Sunday gets here!! Tomorrow is the 6th and i have been looking forward to that day for almost a week, ever since you called my cell wednesday after we left the church and told me what you wanted us to do! Tonight i caught myself staring into the moon, just wondering if it looks the same from Florida, wondering what you were doing at that time and if you were thinking about me at the same time... Man, I cant wait until Sunday lol... Like we said, all of this week is going to make that one day really special! I know the more lonely i am now, and the more i miss you now the better it will feel to finally get to see you then!! Well i really should go now, just wanted to get some things down on here, and put something down i forgot to tell you earlier! I miss you soo much Cami, cant wait until you get home! I love you baby!! Current Mood: tired Current Music: I dont wanna know--Mario wayans (Comment on this)
Wednesday, February 18th, 2004
4:15 pm	¤tired, and missing her¤ Hey, sorry i havent updated, been forever eh? yeah well my other name got proper screwed by something and now i have this one... so add this one to ur friends!! Well last night was awesome, i had some gay practice for baseball that always goes over in time limits, so then when i got home the phone rang and it was Cami, which had rocked bc i had been thinking about her all day! So we talked and then she had to go bc she was loosing reception and still on the bus so i let her go! Later on i had just asked my mom if i could go and meet the bus so i could get to see her for at least a second, and then the phone rings again, and guess who it is? Yes, my wonderful girlfriend... So i get to talk to her again and then when we hang up bc she has to go cheer the rest of the game. So then i got on to see if her sister knew when the bus would be getting home and her step mom actually wanted me to pick her up and take me home, alysa told her i was going to suprise her when the bus got back, so i went then and waited for her bus. It finally came back and i must have had the biggest smile on my face when she turned around from that bus, i was soo happy to see her! I had missed her all day!!! It was just awesome! Welp, that was my night last night... and tonight i am skipping play practice to go see her lol Man this has been just an awesome 1 week and 5 days! I just want these feelings to never end! I cant wait until tonight and i can see her! Well this is enough for today i reckon, now that u all know about my night. Matt- What up dude, i think u should talk to that girl! U know who im talkin about! lol this update is for ya, stop askin now lol (2 Comments |Comment on this)